Shine on til tomorrow. let it be.

So lately i’ve been thinking. Too much. But hell, thats typical me. No lately I’ve been thinking too much about you. I know were over and shit is the past and its been over 6 months, but youre still the person i think of when a random smile brust onto my face. Yes, its you who i daze about. I know that your gone. I know your never coming back. I know. I’ve been told so many times. Hell for a while I stopped thinkning about you and i have TRIED so hard to distract my mind with other people. I know at my age I shouldnt be dating. I know that were over. But I still HOPE that you will come back to my house and say sorry, and kiss me forever and hold me close. No i actually dont want forever. I want to prove that our time together wasn’t enough. I can’t replace, remove any part of what we were. And everytime i think or talk about you i get a dry lump in my throat nearly in tears. I just want more time. Unfortunately i know you all too well, and I know you wont.

Seeing your parents was hard. Hearing about how you and me seem to be leading the same life, fucking sucks. But the fact that you wont text me back hurts so bad. And the fact that i want to still text you, kills me.

I’m terribly torn. hurt. sad. alone. wishful. and comepletly wrong.

Come back?

I literally cant stop thinking about you. And i know its not smart, i cant get attachted. But its too late, so ill jump in head first and hope there is a happily ever after. Ill recover if it’s not. But your worth it, cause i still have the chills.

Buy me food